FEELINGS

[fayzedandconfused]

[Brianna's sitting outside girls' 9, holding a crumpled up letter. OH SNAP SHE'S TOTALLY BEEN CRYING.]

((WHY SUCH A DICK, LJ. I mean. I realized that the past couple weeks have been pretty crappy for Brianna (people leaving, having her luck stolen, fighting with Julian, etc), so rather than have her emoing around in other people's posts I'm throwing this up. Anyone she knows can tag in whenever when LJ's not freaking out, slowtag, backtag, whatever man.))

Comments

[justwannahave]

So you totally wouldn't mind if I just pick up this piece of paper . . .

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

Go ahead. I don't care.

[it's this (http://innamoerati.livejournal.com/12900.html)]

[justwannahave]

*reads it because she's not up for tooth extraction at this time of the day*

. . . Looks like someone has problems talking to people face to face.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

He's a jerk.

[justwannahave]

Some guys can be total jerks.

Though sometimes, Camp doesn't always give people time to say goodbye in person . . .

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

He had time to write a letter.

[justwannahave]

Better than nothing. *smooths out the paper* If he had issues with talking to girls, he would never have made it past the first sentence.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

Whatever. He's gone now, it doesn't matter.

[justwannahave]

People come and go, sure, but they're still people who were friends.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

[she doesn't say anything, just kicks at the grass]

[justwannahave]

I guess when people leave or when people you know pass on . . . you only have memories left.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

I'd rather not.

[justwannahave]

. . . Then what will you have left at the end?

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

Who cares?

[justwannahave]

I think a lot of people want to be remembered by other people. And while you might want to be tougher by not having any attachments to the ones who leave, it's like cutting out a part of you.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

Look, I'm not crying over him, okay? I just had a shitty week. Someone stole my luck.

[justwannahave]

. . . People can do that too? *trying not to get sidetracked*

Whether you were crying or not doesn't matter. You'll still have the letter and memories . . . to do whatever you want with them.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

I just want people to stay here.

[justwannahave]

A lot of people want that too. But it's not always possible and not always their choice either.

Who knows? They might look you up in the future . . . Or you might go to his world to give him a piece of your mind for the letter.

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

... I don't know what world he's from. I'm never going to see him again.

[justwannahave]

[This will never be not awkward]

You could try going there when Camp gives vacation days? I don't think a lot of those worlds have names or whatever . . .

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

[shakes her head and hugs her knees]

[justwannahave]

Where's your sense of adventure? *nudges you*

[easybreezyidiot.livejournal.com]

I don't know anything about the place he's from.

[justwannahave]

Did he seem to come from a place that was terribly dangerous?