fayzedandconfused

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE THING ABOUT BREEZE her character and/or playing her, whatever you wanna talk about. have i asked this before? i'm not sure...

i still need to read more of Gone

I DON'T THINK SO

Umm I like that Breeze is really fun! Like no matter what's up with her she's always full of energy and attitude and that's fun to play and makes it easy to form CR with a lot of different characters. I also like that she's such a dichotomy of like... sassy teenager who can kill without blinking, but who also has such confusion over FEELINGS and relationships and life, so I can play with both the crazy, terrible-decision-making side and the more vulnerable, normal girl side when I feel like it. SHE'S JUST A LOT OF FUN IDK.

And yes you should read more GONE!!

How is Nico feeling now that he has more castmates?

d'awwwwww, Breeze. i love all the sides i've seen of her, too. and yes, i shall!! i...man, i forget where i was last. i THINK they all got to the factory thing and found Astrid's (is that her name?) brother? i should just start over.

oh man...a mess of things. he's feeling kind of cornered with how determined Percy is to actually pay attention to him now, and how he's being so nice. and Clarisse has been pretty civil, and Leo only ever reacts to his weirdness when he brings up the fact that Nico hangs with the dead, so...things are going better than Nico expected, but all of it together can get pretty overwhelming. how nice Percy's been to Nico really has him confused, though. Percy said it's because of the whole Bob thing, but Nico's still from Son of Neptune, so he's like ????? yes I talk to Bob, why is that a big deal? and Clarisse and Nico have sort-of-kind-of bonded with the snugglebear thing and Christmas present exchanges. (Nico gave Clarisse a Celestial bronze knife with a hook at the end of the handle, and she gave him one of her Rob Zombie CDs. cries everywhere) especially after that Half-Blood Lyf Means Terrible Luck post where Clarisse showed up, it was...familiar. he's not exactly happy, because ha. but he's feeling less lonely. everything with his castmates feels like the camps back home, and so he's less estranged here. Nico even got to talk to Leo more, which isn't really a big deal to him, but the guy is usually in his workshop, so Nico doesn't really expect to see him around.

Percy in particular...man, hold my feels, Nico is so confused. Percy's been like, willingly hugging Nico and stuff!! like, what even?? what does he do with this? how should he respond? and Percy hasn't reacted terribly to mistletoe kisses and Nico can't deal with this. he's kind of wobbling on the fence of running away for a while and just. taking it and making sure that all the half-bloods in Camp don't feel left out, because that's a thing. (that's the reason he gave Clarisse and Leo gifts for Christmas in the first place.) but jesus christ, Percy is even more confusing than usual. and of COURSE Percy can't express himself well with words without doing it in the Language of Percy Jackson and just doing it, like this travesty, and Nico just can't. he's so suspicious that everything that's good is just a joke, and he doesn't want to get even more attached, so he's trying to keep his distance. it's not working.

man, i'm not sure i'm making sense anymore. Nico just has a lot of feelings. tl;dr he's really, really happy that Percy came back for him (even though he doesn't quite believe that he was the main reason for it, despite the fact that Percy explicitly said that like, three times) and he legit wanted to hug Percy when he broke into the Stationhive like the crazy hero he is and just, christ feelings.

but yeah Percy isn't the only one that matters here (yes I see you there, Jae) CLARISSE AND LEO AND PERCY being here is pretty great, even though Nico still feels like the odd guy out, there are people here who get it. solidarity, y'know? he'll just stand here on the sidelines forever and enjoy that feeling of familiarity and make sure no one dies, because the revival thing is annoying and that's the only reason i swear. :T and he's still trying to figure out which god to blame for Clarisse appearing out of freaking nowhere just by saying her name, but he doesn't really mind she's here. Tiir mentioned once that they're all family, and though Nico doesn't think of other half-bloods who aren't Hazel and Bianca like that, they're still all demigods. they know how much it sucks, and that their very violent life can be fun in its own way sometimes. a life without fighting monsters? boring.

wow i'll...actually capitalize shit on my next reply, that was a lot of rambling.

UM. going on that track, how does Breeze feel with the Stationhive getting more demigods in it? especially since Clarisse has been magically appearing there at night sometimes, and who even knows what Nico and Percy get down to. ~~cries~~

I'll actually answer your question in a bit but omg Nico and Breeze need to talk about Nico's Percy feelings (somehow, some way!!!) so she can be weirdly nice and supportive of him

yesssss omg /)_(\ probably a truth post, because getting it out of him any other way would be a pain. this has to happen!! LET'S BOND OVER GAY FEELINGS

SHE... is kind of annoyed, but she's annoyed because neither Percy or Clarisse asked her if they could move in, and Breeze views herself as the one ~in charge~ of the Stationhive, and therefore all new tenants should be going through her, not through Nico (or in Clarisse's case, weirdly sneaking in during the night like a creeper, which is what Breeze assumes is going on there... god, Clarisse, stop being so weird). Not having them ask is a blow to her ego, so on the surface she's going to act surly and bratty about it. Added to that is the fact that she initially told Clarisse that she could stay there if she needed a place, and Clarisse was like "lol as if i would ever live in the same building as Broseidon over there" and then sneakmoved in anyway without asking Breeze, like how insulting is that?!

Really, though, she does enjoy having more people in the Hive. '-' Having just her and Jack there was good for a while, but it did get lonely, especially because Jack spends a lot of his time locked in his room. So Breeze likes having people there to talk to, she likes having Nico's dog around to play with her dogs, and she just likes knowing that there is a kind of "community" in the building even if she's not hanging out with them all the time. It reminds her a bit of some of the nicer aspects of the FAYZ, like living at the lake with a ton of other kids.

OKAY WHO FROM YOUR CANONS DO YOU MOST WANT TO SEE IN CAMP

ahaahsdpfoiahdsf BROSEIDON, that's great. Nico was kind of nervous that she wouldn't want Percy staying there in the first place, because he sees her as the head honcho there too. I mean, she was there first... oh, Breeze.

HAZEL AND JASON. jesus fucking christ, just. Hazel and Jason. sob, I would update Nico to the end of House of Hades and get Completely Broken Nico instead of just Slightly Broken Nico for a Jason. and my kingdom for my sister. ;; Frank too, because he's great and I've made a Blood Pact with Tot that I need to pimp him like no other, but oh my god Hazel and Jason. I would be so happy. And of course, if Jason came, he could really use his sister... BAMF ladies club, for the win!

For Last Exile... FAM oh my god, Fam, she is the cutest little sky pirate shit to ever fly in the sky. Also Dunya, Vincent aka Uncle Coffee, and if she were appable cry Holly but she's kind of...not.

and HTTYD, oh man... Astrid's my #1, because holy shit she's awesome. SOMEONE needs to keep Hiccup in line and from blowing himself up, and Toothless is only one dragon. He can't do all the work. Plus we need more strong ladies. Also the twins and Snotlout because Snotlout is hilarious and I love how the TV series has fleshed him out, and the twins would do great in Camp because they're so dumb.

I'm going to cheat and say REVERSE.

So. How did Brianna deal with that whole watching her mom's message thing?

SHE'S COPING BY... NOT COPING... which means she hasn't watched it yet. She keeps psyching herself out of it and honestly she's scared to watch it for multiple reasons. 1) She's not sure what her mom will have said, and 2) If she watches it, that means she won't ever be able to hear her mom say something for the ~first time~ again, ever, and that's a bummer. But that said, she does fully intend to watch it at some point soon. She's just waiting for... something. Honestly part of her was hoping that Ramona would be like "yeah watch it now" when she brought it up in conversation right after vacations, just so she wouldn't be able to back out, but alas.

Anyway, when she does watch it she'll probably be emotional about it, which is another reason she's holding off. How embarrassing!! Right now, she's acting pretty normal, because that's how she copes, but honestly she's having a tough time figuring out how to be a person without being attached to that life anymore. She's having a hard time admitting that it's over, even though intellectually she's known that for almost a year. Now with the stuff Ramona brought back to her, it's really over, and she doesn't know how to deal with that or how to talk about herself to new people (which is why she's having so many issues dealing with the attention from Alison), and it's just. a mess. So putting off watching her mom's message is a sneaky way of putting off The End, for her.

So... tl;dr she does want to watch it but probably needs to be bullied into it a little bit.

HOW ARE THEY DOING RELATIONSHIP-WISE?

Relationship-wise, things are good between them if not full of terrible things surrounding them! Ramona is still the most reluctant at being Brianna's default guardian/family-by-proxy person if she goes to her world (which, c'mon, she totally would be in spite of Brianna's "I CAN DO THIS MYSELF!"). But now she's more accepting of maybe...growing up? or something? to be able to do it. Granted, she still hasn't mentioned the whole thing where her life is seriously messed up and she isn't sure she's not going to be hunted down by three remaining exes but ha ha it's not a big deal, right?

Anyway, the day in California really messed her up. She doesn't want to tell Brianna how much because whoo coping by not coping, best idea! Still, seeing how much Brianna's mother grieved for her and loves her really brought back up all that baggage from her own family's meltdown of her brother dying. And this is just me but I assume the whole exchange basically went with a lot of stages of grief with denial, anger, bargaining, depression... and Brianna's mother basically being an emotional wreck in front of Ramona counting as acceptance. I think what Ramona got out of it was that her mother would have taken up her family and gone to Brianna if she could have done it, which meant Ramona had to say it didn't work that way. And then remember that her family did the exact opposite even though they might have been able to stay together, and all of them abandoned each other in their own way.

So, with this whole impossibility of cross dimensional moving going on, the next best (okay, only) option would be Brianna's mom crying and wringing Ramona's heart into taking care of her, probably festooned with guilt for sending her off in the first place. Just to twist the knife more. And even though Ramona's default state is not taking on that responsibility it hammered in an already emotionally sensitive punched and sore spot that she has to be there for Brianna. She has to be there in a way her mom can't, her sisters can't, and nobody in Ramona's life has been for her (which, yeah, maybe Roxie is trying to fix that but they were pretty shitty to each other prior to this second try).

Oh right tangent, going to Roxie's family and seeing how a dysfunctional-yet-functionally-together family worked only managed to reinforce how she is not really suited for this whole thing. She is not really sure how much of this dealing with Brianna could affect their relationship, since they've mostly maintained a "oh yeah that's happening let's not think of details" conversational bent. But Roxie knows California made her more aloof and gloomy that she's mostly trying to hide.

So Ramona is exhausted with all this responsibility, trying to be as casual as she can but she also attempting to let Brianna know without making it a big deal or "promise" per se. That's why she kind of mumbled the "you've got me" then immediately grouped herself in with Jack and went along in the distracting by watching a bad movie move. Because she doesn't want to promise what she can't deliver and maybe she might not be able to, because it's not like things can't happen.

It's kind of why she's rankling a bit at Alison, who is clearly displeased that Ramona is the person she is for Brianna. And Ramona wants to shout at her "OF COURSE I'M TERRIBLE AT THIS, DON'T REMIND ME!" to this suburban normal person who doesn't know the truth about why she can't go back. And Ramona can't tell her, because it is Brianna's truth to tell, but also she's pretty sure she'd let it slip that she's terrified and hearing someone who clearly has a passion to be a care giver for someone is something she's not interested in hearing.

So, long story short she's sort of in the same boat in trying to avoid things by acting normal and not really addressing it. She's not trying to be significantly better as a role model for Brianna but she's trying to be more...there for her? Like, that weird nebulous concept of a person who keeps staying in your life even when things go south, that what-do-you-call-it unconditional something or whatever? Not doing well at it but it's there!

tl;dr Brianna has somehow weaseled and guilted herself into the "is like family" category for Ramona, even if Ramona's concept of family is kind of "well it's there but not actually going to stick around" and I am even putting up with teaching brats how to do soccer for you young lady :/

cries. if Brianna knew exactly how much pressure she was putting on Ramona, she wouldn't be as gung-ho about Toronto and life after Camp as she is now. I mean she has no idea about the evil exes thing, or about Ramona and Roxie not actually discussing anything… thing… She's only mentioned going with them after Camp to Roxie once, and Roxie was just like, "It's no problem," so as far as Brianna is concerned, everything is fine. Well. "Fine."

She does get that Ramona isn't used to all of this, and that she is still messed up about her brother, but Brianna thinks of those things as things they can deal with? She doesn't believe that she'll ever need Ramona to be more than what she is now, in Camp, aka someone to hang out with and talk about stuff and watch movies with. She has an idea of what life after Camp will be like, but she's… a kid… so she's definitely not considering everything realistically.

HOWEVER at this point she would do pretty much anything for Ramona and Roxie and she does have some concept of how much she owes them, especially Ramona, and she really wants to do good in life so that she can repay them for everything as soon as possible. She'll probably never be able to tell Ramona exactly how grateful she is for what Ramona did over vacation, but the feelings are there! If she knew about the evil exes she would want to help fight them. She really does care for Ramona a lot and feel attached to her and view her as family. She just… doesn't realize a lot about the future because she has this idealistic view of being able to deal with everything pretty much independently. Oblivious preteen. :|

How annoying does Brianna find Alison on a scale of 1 to 10 :D

UMM. 5?!

Honestly Brianna's weirdness about Alison is less that Alison is overbearing and nosy, because normally Breeze can get around that pretty easily, and more that Breeze doesn't know how to talk to Alison about her life and situation without reeeally freaking Alison out. She doesn't know what to say, and it makes her feel awkward. And also having someone mom at her so intensely makes her feel... sad and miss her own mom... but she responds to feelings of sadness by being a brat, hence the "Not my mom" comment in their last thread.

But really she has more positive feelings toward Alison than negative ones at this point! She's weird about showing it, but the positive feelings are there. Alison paying so much attention to her helps, even if Brianna pretends to be annoyed by it, because attention is Brianna's favorite thing.

Reverse me!

I was telling Cosima's player this, but I feel like Alison and her storyline is pretty much just comedy/tragedy (or a hilarious mix of both) with not much in-between? In some ways? She's all peaks and valleys, and the only sort of middle-ground is how much she loves her kids. She loves them so much, like I don't even think it's a matter of she "treats" them like her own, they are her own in her mind. A huge chunk of her life revolves around them, being a soccer mom and all. Her day works around their school and activities schedule, whether she gets to go out somewhere depends on babysitter availability for them, a lot of decisions she makes is based on "How do I keep my kids safe?" etc etc. So to not have that in Camp is a constant reminder that she is not with her kids and she's already missing them so much without that.

So! Other than the alcohol (sob), Alison's other coping mechanism is to just... carry-on doing all this "soccer mom" stuff because it keeps her occupied and busy and leaves less time for thinking about every stressful thing in her life! But so far she's met lots of teenagers (some of which she's convinced are clinically depressed or something) but not much in the way of kids. She loves kids! She wanted them enough to adopt! So she's sort of hovering around Brianna a bit more because she genuinely thinks she's bright and likes her anyway, but she's also the closest Alison has seen to someone being her kids' ages, and really she just needs a hug from a kid :( Also she's convinced she's a runaway and Ramona is not sending out enough "I AM A RESPONSIBLE GUARDIAN" vibes that Alison is honestly very concerned about that arrangement. She totally feels like she has overstepped herself with Brianna enough times though that she has a bit of a "kids hate meeee" complex going on and is resolving herself to be a little less involved. Buuuut she will carry through with the soccer. And is trying to organize some kind of school thing because between what Brianna's told her and Ma Chao going "I CAN'T READ OR WRITE PROPER ALSO WHAT'S 9x9" she's convinced this is necessary!!!

HAHA starting a school in camp will legit make Brianna cry. She has such negative experiences with school that at this point the idea alone makes her want to run away.

Having someone want to be so involved in Brianna's life is really weird for her, honestly. She doesn't hate Alison at all, but she's super torn between liking the attention and being freaked out by it. Brianna's mom was definitely not the soccer mom type (maybe she would have been, but she didn't have the time/resources until she got remarried and then Brianna got sent away). BRIANNA JUST. HAS A LOT OF ISSUES RE: HER FAMILY. She gets that Alison probably really misses her kids, though, and she's actually… trying not to be too much of a terror until Alison gets more settled in. /o\

BUT EDUCATION AND LEARNING!!!

I'm sure they'll find some comfortable middle-ground to meet on eventually, haha

SOMEDAY

I'M SO BAD AT THINKING UP QUESTIONS maybe a general status update on Brianna and Alphonse with Ed having gone home etc etc?

Breeze is super glad Alphonse is back. She missed having him to talk to and hang out with (and help walk the dogs). She is worried about him, though, in her way. '-' First with Ed going home—she knows that has to be weighing on him more than he lets on, but she has no idea how to bring up the subject without it being weird, so she's just... not... Also she's worried about his blackouts or whatever they are, and the fact that he peaced out for a month but only thought he was gone a day is. creepy. However, she's not good at dealing with supernatural or weird stuff unless it involves killing said supernatural or weird stuff, so she has no idea how to handle this! And is just going to keep an eye on Alphonse for now and make sure he's not acting weird. SHE CARES, SHE JUST. DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ACT LIKE SHE CARES.

Reverse!

Al was super super touched when he told Brianna that his brother had left and she didn't go WELL GOOD RIDDANCE or anything. She was nice and gave him a hug and the whole thing was very "oh gosh friendship!!" He's stuck in camp without anyone from home again, and just like when he first got there, Brianna's someone he feels comfortable with and relies on, in his own way. He's used to STRONG, TERRIFYING WOMEN who are actually really caring deep down (but still so badass), and Brianna fits right in with that so while it's not the same as having someone he knows from home, it's comfortable! At the same time, he doesn't like getting other people involved in his problems, so it's less about ~sharing feelings~ and more about having someone to hang out with, but their friendship means a lot to him. :(

Coming back from what may have been a month-long black out, Al is understandably freaked out. After their conversation he probably shut himself in his room and spent awhile going "PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AL" annnd now he's mostly trying not to think about it too hard. He feels bad for worrying Brianna, but wants to be honest about what's going on so that they're on the same page. She's also his closest friend here and without Ed to a) give him grief about getting too close to people and b) have matching issues with, he does feel a little more compelled to start sharing what's going on.

BUT he's still a 14 year old boy and he's going to try his best to get things back to normal and throw himself into dog walking and sparring and making sure Brianna eats enough on Mondays. '-'

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